Music Therapy

I've been trying to pep myself by listening to classical music since yesterday. I started with googling for midi files for Pachelbel's Canon, but I figured variety will do me more healthy.
Right now I'm savoring the collections from Midisite.

Tortuous

I know that I can make this day just pass by...
I can wait for time to crawl,
And I will flinch in every way as it does,
But I know
I can let it go that way
And I know
It will torture me
At the end of the day.

The Daily Commuter

Now, how does that sound?
"Digests of a Girl on the Road"
Or something like that.

The morning's almost over. I have successfully spent five minutes for "official work."
I'm keeping this window open in case some thought pops up and I need a distraction. Like I'm not already distracted.

I am totally blank.
I think, that I have lost all abilities for analysis, if I ever had them.
Why am I bashing myself now?

Maybe I should change my title to: "Stuck"

The Daily Commuter headline for today was supposed to be a story on one of the children-vendors that sell rags and flanel cloth along the EDSA - Quezon Boulevard Area.
I shall hope to write something about it some other time.

I have waited for lunch. And it has come.

I have successfully made a rambling.

Office Work

For the past few days, most of the stuff I've been doing was copy/cut-paste text from one document to another. My forefinger is already sore from doing the task. I'm typing with my forefinger raised and using my middle finger to type the keys assigned to the forefinger on the QWERTY keyboard. I think I have pressed the backspace key, probably twice, more than I did the correct keys.

Lethargic

I somehow have the feeling that I'm wasting government money during the past days that I've been reporting to work.
This "ability to work without supervision" that I have bravely put in my resume does not seem quite accurate with my outputs in my current job.
How, indeed, do the things I'm doing at the moment contribute to making the world a better place for children?
There must be some self motivating mantra in here that I can use.... I can not go on like this.

Eksena sa Jeepney

I had this written when I was getting dramatic over my transportation boboos. I was supposed to add how drivers could also be very vulnerable - always at risk of having a passenger who is a robber or a hold - upper (is hold-upper a real word? or is that just Filipino English?), passengers who do not give the appropriate fare, or passengers who do not give their fare at all. And there are many stories about drivers' nightmares too.
Anyway, I got lazy. So I was not able to put the revisions that I wanted.

090105
Eksena sa Jeepney

People don’t care anymore... so it seems. And there is no better place to demonstrate this than in a public utility vehicle. Jeepneys, buses, FXs, taxis.
I usually try not to stress myself by hurrying to work in the mornings, but there are many days when one needs to rush and every split second is precious. But that is not what I wish to speak about.
I arrive here at work, more sad than indignant. I had been, during the past weeks observing how the public utility vehicle has become such a place of mistrust. A few examples:
A person asks if the jeepney will pass into a certain area where she wishes to go. The driver does not respond but allows the person to get into the jeep anyway. The person directs the question again to no one in particular, and the jeep moves on. The jeep was not going to the place where the person needed to go. I had to ask the woman again where she was going and told her to transfer to the other jeep plying that road.
I get into an FX from the Quezon Avenue and EDSA Highway intersection with the intention of going to Morayta. I gave a hundred and the driver gives me back seventy pesos. I was quite sure there was an injustice there (I allow myself to be corrected), so I asked the driver if the fare from the Highway to Morayta was really P30, in the hearing of my co-passengers. He said yes. My co-passengers remained silent. I got out still feeling overcharged and the feeling was intensified by the thought that the FX I rode in had the name, “God’s Resource” and the driver was tuned to a Christian radio station.
I get into an FX again, on my way to work. I get down at the boundary of Quezon City and Manila City, the landmark more popularly known as “Welcome Rotonda.” I paid twenty and expected at least a five peso change. Some drivers charge fifteen to that place from where I get in, but the charge ought to be only ten. I let it off when the driver charges me fifteen because I still think that it’s reasonable given the jeepney driver charges the same amount even with his less comfortable vehicle. The driver did not return my change immediately so I asked him for it during a traffic lull, repeating where I got in and where I was to get off, in the hearing of my co-passengers. He gave me a ten peso change, for which I was thankful. I then proceeded to take Nicholas Nickleby from my backpack and whiled the ride reading. I got quite engrossed, such that when I looked up from my reading, I was already at the railroad crossing at Vito Cruz. I was way far off from the landmark! I looked at the passenger in front of me and he avoided me with a knowing look. Nobody, not even my seatmates gave me a signal, and it doesn’t have to be awkward doing that because all they have to say is, “Miss, Welcome na.”

I appreciate the time when I was going to SM North from UP and there was a bunch of boys with me on the jeep. I sometimes have the habit of sleeping in jeeps when the route is familiar and long. I was surprised when I received a sharp tap on my knees. One of the boys took the effort to wake me up before they left. We were the last passengers on the jeepney. I somehow expected people to take such little gestures of social responsibility.

And the drivers also have their own share of horror stories.

But there are still greater reasons why the public utility vehicle is probably the most mistrustful place in the Philippines. Ask anybody who has been held up twice in an FX. Or someone who, while in an FX, witnessed a robbery going on at the jeep in front of them. Ask someone who would rather take the long route of hopping on the LRT and then on the MRT, only to avoid getting into a jeep or FX at ten in the evening. Ask anybody who sends text messages while his or her cell phone is still halfway inside his/her bag never fully exposing it.


For many people it is not already strange. Filipinos put up with little injustices and inconveniences as long as it does not happen to them. But it is very sad. If we cannot feel safe within our public utility vehicles, how can we feel safe in our country, I wonder.

Blessed!

The cleaning lady at our office came bursting in the conference hall where we and my office mates were having lunch. Quite agitated, most of us were afraid she brought in some terrible news as she held a newspaper in her hand and almost out of breath from emotion.

But it turned out to be an excited expression of happiness.

Her daughter was in the list of passers in the recently concluded licensure exam for teachers. She was so happy almost to the point of tears everybody in the room could not help but be jubilant with her.

Manang Vangie's daughter will probably become a teacher soon. Maybe then she would be able to take her family out of poverty. But Manang Vangie also rests hope on something else - and she is quite sure of it, so she says. Her daughter had come home after the exam declaring she would pass it - because she had the prayers of her church brothers and sisters and because the Lord has told her so. So Manang Vangie declares she will soon be rich with as much faith as her daughter showed. She had already sent ninety entries to the Nestle Christmas raffle promo, and she could feel it that she would win.

Some chuckle and go along.

But there was no doubt she was very happy today. Her daughter has just made her proud, and she's proven how God does take care of her and her family.

God bless them indeed.

FX Political Science 101

The driver of the FX I rode this morning has probably learned much from the radio programs he had been listening to. He made his own political and social commentaries while the radio anchor rattled on in the background. The other two passengers in the front seat were accommodating co-discussants.

Basically, it was Gloria. The radio had just announced some recent news related to a Gloria program.

“Plastic talaga.”

“ E ngiti nga ngiting aso na e.”

“Sinungaling na nga, ang galing pang magpalusot. Kababae niyang tao, di na nahiya.”

The driver did most of the talking. Mentioning how corrupt the government is already.

“Nung panahon ni Marcos kasi, isa lang nangungurakot. Si Marcos lang. Ngayon lahat na.”

That’s why, he said, the proposed budget has reached the trillion value mark. He thinks the President is trying to pay off the political debts she accumulated and the E-vat is also probably one of those means. He would never join any of those rallies, he continued. “Pero pag meron na yang E-vat na yan, sasama na talaga ako. Ang hirap nang magpagasolina. Linggo – linggo tumataas ng singkwenta.”

“Ang problema kasi sa gobyerno natin dalawa ang namumuno. Si Gloria at si Ramos. Makikining yung isa sa mga advisers niya, sasabihin niya dun sa isa. Tapos sasabihing di puwede. Wala talagang nangyayari.”

The conversation dwindled after some time. I couldn’t remember now how far it went. I had to get down. Taking note that the driver charged me five pesos more than my usual fare with other FX taxis and that his taxi had no name on the side. It was an interesting ride, nonetheless.

I guess the passengers had their share of live radio that morning. “Taxi driver commentaries” are sometimes entertaining but they are also the voice of the people.

Maybe the President should consider riding the public transport system more frequently.

Repackaged

October 6, 2005

While leaving the house this morning I was told how I already look like a government employee – which I am – at the moment and not the community organizer that I used to be. My beholder and I both wrinkled our noses on the thought. Not a bad thought, actually. This is, after all, the current show and I have my costume to wear.

The curtain’s up.

Jeepney Sin

Here's attempting to start being "engaged" with this blog.

It has been quite a while.

While the jeep I rode this morning was waiting for more passengers before taking off, a girl in long hair, short skirt and lots of make-up and jewelry got in and started rummaging her bag pockets. She found some loose change, which she placed in her coin box (because it was not a purse) and some loose paper and other bits of litter, which she promptly and unashamedly threw at the space behind the driver's seat and the passengers' seat. She got down at an area fronting a government office, which is probably where she goes to work.
The Philippines is not made filthy by the uneducated. It is the educated who do not care that makes this country so deplorable.

Poor Man's Lunch

092305 200 pm

I just finished a Jollibee spaghetti for lunch. I watched a man in slippers waiting for the rain to stop, before he could continue walking to wherever, I do not know. But he was already drenched by the looks of him. His feet and bag he carried already mudied.

I almost cried,  while I finished my last spoonfuls of pasta and saw him pass a glance at the colorful posters and the food on the customers' tables.

He was not a beggar.

I find less heart for beggars, I think.

I cry that the working man, he that makes an honest toil, has to be poor.  

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Help Build a Community Library

Dear Friends,

Last September 20, the Metro section of the Philippine Daily Inquirer featured a story on a notable project. I have included along with this email a copy of the article and links to the article's online version at www.inq7.net (http://news.inq7.net/metro/index.php?index=1&story_id=50715 ).

 

The project is called "Aklatang Pambata" - The Narcissa Abiad Community Library at Paltok, San Francisco Del Monte, Quezon City. The article tells much about what you need to know about the project... but there's more that needs to be done - particularly with the fund support to at least finish the renovations.

 

Fund raising is an awkward task, but it has to be done. I am personally asking for your assistance in this endeavor. The project accepts personal or corporate contributions through the following coordinators that are listed below. Please feel free to contact them on how you can send your contributions. You may also access the project blog at http://aklatangpambata.blogspot.com for more information.

 

The vision of the project is to pave the way in the establishment, development and improvement of community-based libraries in the country. The mission is to make children appreciate the value of reading; to make teachers, parents and community members partners in promoting reading in children; to be a model community library that can be replicated in other areas; and to make a community of readers.

 

Your contribution will help make this a reality. Help build communities. Help build a library.

 

Thank you.

 

 

Eleonor Baldo-Soriano

Project Assistant

Hiraya Center for Community Libraries

Aklatang Pambata - Narcissa Abiad Community Library Project

+639275363698

+63-02-928-7898

eleonor@lakan.net

Aklatang Pambata - Narcissa Abiad Community Library Project Coordinators:

 

Alistair Troy B. Lacsamana

Aklatang Pambata Project Coordinator

College Librarian II, UP College of Engineering

O: 9818500 local 3109

M: 09178290925

E: troybdude@yahoo.com

 

Ma. Lourdes Vargas
Asst. Professor
UP Integrated School, College of Education and UP Open University
University of the Philippines-Diliman
Mobile #: 0920-897-1333
Email: dedettejvargas@yahoo.com

 

 

This story was taken from www.inq7.net
 

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http://news.inq7.net/metro/index.php?index=1&story_id=50715

Old house with a new role
First posted 00:24am (Mla time) Sept 20, 2005
By Julie M. Aurelio
Inquirer News Service

IT WAS AN OLD HOUSE, A Bahay-na-bato on a corner lot, 29 Mendoza Street, Brgy. Paltok, San Francisco del Monte, Quezon City. Engineer Edward Abiad and his family were moving away, but his mother, Narcissa, did not want to sell the house. She wanted to convert it into a community library where the children of Paltok could learn to read and read well. Now, through the efforts of Laging Pahinungod, a volunteer organization of the University of the Philippines Diliman, Narcissa's long-cherished wish is coming true. The Aklatang Pambata will soon be Paltok's own community library. The University of the Philippines Interior Design Class 179 is designing and renovating the ground floor of the Abiad house. Built in the 1930s, caretaker Eduardo Estrella said the Abiad house was originally a vacation place for the family. Bahay-na-bato structures Estrella said, were common until after World War II. The ground floor was designed as a "silong" or shed, while the second floor served as living quarters. Films like "Tanging Ina" and "So Happy Together" were shot on the second floor. Edward entrusted the house to Estrella as they were members of the same UP Diliman fraternity, Beta Epsilon. Community project "The idea is to set up a library and to make it a community-based endeavor," said Alistair Troy Lacsamana, Laging Pahinungod member and the project's overall coordinator. The community was involved in planning, getting the books, sourcing funds, as well as recruiting volunteers. Secondhand textbooks, he said, were solicited from the Cartwheel Foundation. Pahinungod wanted Aklatang Pambata to be a model community library that could be replicated in other parts of the country. Prof. Lourdes Vargas of the UP Integrated School and one of the project's major players said people who heard of the project, also wanted to start libraries in their areas. In July 2004, Aklatang Pambata got 25 boxes of used textbooks from the Cartwheel Foundation. Lacsamana said they hoped to get more children's story books for story-telling sessions. The Aklatang Pambata, he added, would also be a reading tutorial and resource center. Two elementary schools will be the main beneficiaries of the library: the Bayanihan Elementary School and the Paltok Elementary School. Even before the ground floor's renovation, story-telling sessions were organized. One session had children of elementary age as story-tellers. Important Sharon Betan, mother of one of the child storytellers, said having a community library was a worthwhile endeavor. "Reading is very important, and to have a community library would really help enhance the reading skills of children." Her daughter, Sierra, was a finalist in a story-telling competition sponsored by the National Book Development Board (NBDB). The other story-tellers were Nelson Capila Jr. and Czarelle Guerra, winners in the NBDB contest. The three are Grade 5 students at the UP Integrated School. Capile and Guerra told stories in Filipino: "Ang Mahiyaing Manok" and "Ang Batang Ayaw Maligo," respectively. Betan's story was "Bruhihi, Bruhaha (Mrs. Magalit)" in English. "It seems that the children find stories in Filipino more amusing," noted Vargas. Asked if his school had story-telling activities, a boy named Lorenzo said: "Hindi po. Binebentahan lang kami ng libro pero walang nagkukuwento." (No. They just sell books but no one ever tells stories.) Lacsamana related they did not have enough money to sustain the renovation. The Interior Design 179 class estimated the renovation costs at P1.2 million. The class had collected only P280,000, so they are looking for sponsors. The volunteers are also coordinating with the Sangguniang Barangay and kagawad for support to the project. Vargas said they were not worried about lack of volunteers. "People always come to help. And I am encouraged by those who eventually stay on to help with the project." The Laging Pahinungod now has 40 volunteers. Despite the obstacles, the group remains optimistic. "I always get a different sense of satisfaction and fulfillment when I see that the children are happy," said Lacsamana.

©2005 www.inq7.net all rights reserved

Learning The Trade

I have been quite distraught during the past few days. I have not been able to do work. I have been successfully flipping through papers and opening files but without much achievement in terms of outputs. In my case, at least a coherent paragraph that would consist a policy paper.

I have been agonizing on what to do or why I could not think or even simply comprehend the research reports I have been reading.

Today, I came to work with a renewed sense of motivation... I planned to change strategies and look through models, being seemingly lost and inexperienced that I am now.

Of course, Google was a savior. Again. . Search words: policy paper child. First on the search results: National Center For Children In Poverty.

Already, I found some good material that I hope to learn from.

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Work Notes

http://www.ualr.edu/iog/format.html#PA

 

POLICY ANALYSIS PAPER FORMAT

 

The final policy analysis paper should be approximately 30 pages in length. The executive summary is especially important. The required format for the paper contains the following sections:

 

Title Page

Executive Summary

Table Of Contents

 

Background of problem

Description of problem situation

Outcomes of prior efforts to solve problem

 

Scope and severity of problem &emdash; quantify the problem

Assessment of past policy performance

Magnitude of Problem situation/Symptoms

Justification for the need for analysis

 

Problem Statement

Definition of problem

Identification of major stakeholders, their goals and objectives and positions with respect to problem

Identify criteria measures/indicators to be used for evaluation

 

Policy Alternatives

Identification and description of alternatives

Evaluation of alternatives with respect to the criteria

Project the outcomes for each alternative

Identify constraints, tradeoffs, and political feasibility of each alternative

 

Forecasted Effects and Analysis of Each Option

Outline impacts of each policy

Assessment of the positive and negative impacts

 

Comparison of Options

Evaluate (Rank) different options based on the different goals

Cost/Benefit Analysis

Other models

 

Recommendations

Description of preferred alternative(s)

Outline of implementation strategy

Establish provisions for monitoring and evaluation

 

References

 

Appendices

Tables, graphs, and other exhibits not suitable for the body of the paper.

 

Hope.

 

"All things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."

- Romans 8:25(NKJV).

 

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I Was Once a Scientist....

... or at least I tried to become one - no I pretended to be one. Just to survive the rigors. And eventually concluding molecular science was challenging, very challenging... but it was not the piece of cake I can have and eat.

I did a thesis on an actin-binding protein called coronin in Acanthamoeba healyi - I am quite sure you do not care what that is, but it's a one-celled organism that you can find everywhere. It sometimes causes keratitis in contact lense wearers.

Too bad the paper cannot be readily accessed online... but the biblio entry goes this way:

Acanthamoeba healyi: Molecular cloning and characterization of a coronin homologue, an actin-related protein
Experimental Parasitology, Volume 110, Issue 2, June 2005, Pages 114-122
Eleonor T. Baldo, Eun-Kyung Moon, Hyun-Hee Kong and Dong-Il Chung

.... you can read the abstract, though.

 I also did a stool survey. It was more fun and rewarding, because I get to talk with street kids and give them deworming tablets. But the sample size was too small to make a significant contribution to prevalence surveys. The Korean Journal of Parasitology accepted my study as a "brief communication." The article can be viewed online for free.
Bibliographical entry goes this way:

BALDO ET, BELIZARIO VY, DE LEON WU, KONG HH, CHUNG DI.
Infection status of intestinal parasites in children living in residential institutions in Metro Manila, the Philippines.
Korean J Parasitol. 2004 Jun;42(2):67-70


That was my short stint as a scientist - in complete lab get-up and all. But that was just once. So call it a past life. :)

(Why don't I have formatting buttons in my create post window? I'm typing plain text and can't even post a picture!)

Hope.

 

"All things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."

- Romans 8:25(NKJV).

 

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Notes at Work

I found this three days after I first reported to work. I think these are the tasks I should be doing... I say 'found" because wasn't given a formal orientation and turn-over and I literally found these notes from the stuff left by the former occupant of the table I'm now using..

Research and Development Policy Analysis Process

1. Study results and recommendations of the study.
2. Define the problem: What specific problems does the study address?
3. Review of related literature:
a. Related laws (local and international)
b. Related studies
c. History of the issue
d. International experiences
4. Review and analysis if existing laws and programs.
5. Summary and initial analysis of the study
6. Concept paper for the round table discussion for specific issues
7. Round table discussion: Feedback of implementing agency on the study and initial analysis. (The R and D team finds it necessary to conduct a meeting among agencies concerned to input possible policy innovations.
8. Further analysis
9. Final policy paper to be distributed to the concerned agencies, WB and ADB
10. Two to three page summary for popular form
11. Round table discussion of specific policies to be recommended to the Board.
12. Meeting with Regions
13. Publication of Policy Paper in CWC website
14. Dissemination of the study to the Regions.

Playing with Ate Connie's Phone Camera

Lights around Hotel Dominique.

Barangay Maitim, Km. 55, Aguinaldo Highway,

Tagaytay City, Philippines

Excerpt: Pambie's "Surrender" Song

Chorus:

Today is a day of surrender.

I hang limp of my defenses and embrace YOUR many graces.

Surrender is the loveliest way to die.

It may strip me of the countless masks I have been wearing.

On my knees my contrite heart is weeping.

I painfully surrender to live in YOUR arms.

Street

August 18, 2005

On an FX bound for Taft

 

A kid defecates on the sidewalk.

His mother and siblings are on a mat not far from him.

The automobiles run along the highway.

Indifferent.

How can a mother allowe her children to live on the street?

It does not even support the argument of survival.

An organism that wants to ensure survival will seek the least harmful environment.

 

 

Crunch Time

I'm cramming.
And it's supposed to be a long weekend.
Quezon City Day tomorrow. We're allowed to take part of the festivities which means we get to have a holiday.

But...
I'm cramming.