Tuesday, March 03, 2020

I did not know zucchini rots so easily


-->I bought one, I think for 50 cents
A week ago from a farmer's market
Something like market day back home
Quite an event, in this part of the world
Two days a week
You can buy farm produce
And cheese
At much lower prices than they would
At supermarkets
But of course, you can get some rotten tomatoes
But a few out of a lot
It is still a bargain
Anyway, I bought this zucchini
And forgot about it
I didn't know it turns liquid when it rots
I had to scoop it out of a bag where I put the vegetables
I cannot put all the vegetables that I buy in the refrigerator.
We share the refrigerator with a house mate
I am amazed that we have a large refrigerator
And still have not enough space in the cooler.

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Again, something from my past life.
Wonderful days.. Wonderful days... 


Thoughts After Viewing Akasha's Friendster Photo Album

I have forgotten
That I was drawn to you
Precisely because
You can give words
To seemingly unfathomable
Thoughts
and
Feelings

That I should not have

Because

I am Joy.

I have forgotten
That it was the colors you painted
That made me understand
To let mysteries be
Because they are not meant to be understood

I have forgotten
That I have lost joy
Because I turned my back on grief altogether

You see,
I thought I have grown tired
Of feeling lost
And that I'll work my way out

And yet,
I am still not found.


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This is another something that I found in the draft bin. Obviously, again, from so many years ago - because there's no such thing as Friendster now.

I'd say - if someone said this is actually theirs and not mine - I would believe them.
The muses have left me for so long... I don't remember anymore.




To Be Heard

I wasn't really back.
That newly published post has been in the draft folder for the past - - - five years.

But I just might be getting my muses back... just might...

Today, I read the story of a security guard.

https://newsinfo.inquirer.net/1236292/greenhills-hostage-taker-refused-p1m-from-employer-insisted-on-being-heard

He just wanted to be heard.

Such a sad story.
That we should resort
To extreme measures
So that our voices could
Be discerned
By unhearing kings
Or callous lords

That we have to beg
For an audience
In a world
That claims to be
Free

And yet
To be heard
We have to lose
Our freedom.

He just wanted to be heard.

Coming Home



... and I'm back. Lets get this blog out of the dusty storage bins and bring it back to life. 
What better way to come back than by writing about coming home - and paying tribute to people who matter most - my parents. 

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We moved into our old/ new home recently. Old, because we lived here some years back before moving somewhere else outside the city. New because we've come back after so many years and as a gift my parents gave the place a new look, adjusted the layout of the old structure and gave it new dimensions. My husband and I are basking in the new paint, and the significantly greater space. More importantly, we have come home to a place we call our own. 

It is not an impressive structure. No architect was involved in the designing. No fancy fixtures. No big construction. It is not something that could be featured in magazines. It is a mix of concrete and galvanized iron, bits and pieces of materials brought together, almost like a mosaic of the old and new.  The frontage is the remnant of what used to be a sari-sari store - with galvanized sheets covering the grills, and a foldable door converted into a wall. 

I walk around, opening the doors, going up and down the small, wooden spiral staircase that didn't use to be there. I couldn't help but well up with emotion feeling the love that my parents have for me in every corner and crevice of this house. Here I am, already an adult, supposedly capable of earning my way to have my own properties and yet, here are my parents - bona fide senior citizens - giving what they could to show their affection. This house was literally built with their own hands. My father is a carpenter and along with my ever entrepreneurial mother, they held the hammer that placed a nail in place, carried a shelf to put into position, and held the broom that swept the dirt to get the place ready and clean. To expand the floor area, they gave up their own private space. They did not tell us about the renovations nor asked for money that was necessary to see it through. It was meant as a surprise. Surely they have used a portion of whatever savings they had, and my brothers have certainly chipped in one way or another. My youngest brother willingly gave the tiles which could have been used for his own house. Thank you my dear brothers - older sister will try to make it up someday, somehow.

Just the thought of how much a labor of love this gift is makes me cry with gratitude. Thank you Daddy and Mama - for this precious gift - an expression of your great love for us. We could not ask for more, and pray to God that He would allow us the opportunity to bless you back. We love and honor you! 

 “Honor your father and mother. Then you will live a long, full life in the land the Lord your God is giving you.” - Exodus 20:12  (NLT)